A full cycle...

I have wondered about the existence of GOD.. I have questioned myself and many others about His existence but never actually got a satisfactory reply..(Hmmm.. I wonder why we refer to GOD as Him and not Her or It....a good topic for my next blog I guess)

I have come a full cycle . First it was my mom telling me that God existed in the pictures and every thing around you.. even in you.. the umpteen stories that I have heard as a child .. the "Prahalada kadai" for instance. But then as I was growing up I started questioning His existence.. Where does God come from.. does He have a start and an end point? if He were omniscient why doent he gratify all your whims and fancies.. These were questions that bothered me and soon I started disbelieving in Him..I vehemently disageed on any theory put forth by others to convince me of his presence. I strongly believed that work or my" Karma" alone can yield me success..

But it was my twelfth class exam results that shook me.. I was first throughout the year and somehow .. I dont know what happened it was my Physics paper, it got lost and I was graded very low in the exams... it shattered me.. I believed until then Hard work and hard work only pays but here I was with proof that hard work alone does not pay.. call it luck(bad or good), call it His will .. the fact remains that there is something beyond our ken that has a hand in the way your life goes...What is this Force .. if I may call it that, that plays such hugh role in your life? Now I dont have an answer to that..

So now.. I have come a full cycle.. I now believe in some superior Force beyond our Ken. Call it God. Call it Knowledge call it any thing you want.. But it know that It exists..

May the Force be with you
(ya.. i flicked the phrase from Star Wars :)

Beauty.... still analyzing

When u see a person the first thing that u notice is probably how they look. A tall, handsome and charismatic man or a beautiful, slim girl will probably stand out in a crowd . Why is it that the eye looks for beauty? i once saw a show on discovery where the scientist explains that the mind is looking for symmetry and a symmetric face is what is attractive. The eye is able to distinguish even the smallest deviation from symmetry and thats why some people are more appleaing than others. but the body just reflects the state of your mind. If the mindis happy .. your face is glowing and you have a spring in your step.when you are sad the body language shows and your state of mind is not permanent it keeps changeing.......So must we pay as much attention to outter beauty? Most of us believe Beauty is just skin deep.. but the inner beauty is what really matters. but then again.. what is the inner beauty? That is also a state of mind.... what you are at this moment you will never be at a different instant of time.. and values and principles keep changing with time. ... My father used to say "If you are beautiful/Handsome, half the battle is won...." may be its rite.. there is even an old Sanskrit saying "Sarve Gunaha kanakam aashrayanti" meaning - All good qualities are attached to gold............ But if beauty is such a ephemeral thing then y are we looking fo it?? ..........................

Random Thoughts

Its been a long time since i wrote a blog. Since the time i have started working i havent realised how much i miss until saturday last ....After 2 months of hectic schedule and working for three weeks straight with no holidays in between, I finally got this weekend off. It was a day of rest and rest i did.. But while i was sitting in the balcony i saw pink flowers bloomed on the tree rite outside my flat. I wondered how i missed it this year. This was the tree we planted 4 of years back and it did not flower for the first 3 year. But bloomed last year . I was so thrilled to see the flowers then. And now one year later .. hear i am standing in front of the tree and not noticing that it is in full lossom. It is a pretty sight now. It has so many flowers that the leaves are almost invisible....That is when i realised that this working culture tha we have makes us mere Robots .. sitting in front of computers and typinginane stuff incessently .. What a life.. you only get to enjoy the small pleasure of life on pictures forwarded to u by some good soul...

But really we must all stop to think .. Is hat we r doing worth misssing so muuch?? After all we only have one life to live!!!

A quote

"Advice is what we ask for when we already know the answer but wish we didn't."-- Erica Jong